To my wonderful husband,Tasherre . Always remember that I love you.

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love song
for my husband, Tasherre

when i stand and deliver
these lines of prepared speech
my words seem hollow and filled
with promises
i know i can not keep
fatalism is no way to live
but i keep on finding ways to die
what’s this river of tears
flowing down my face
what’s this hammering
on the shell of my heart
is this love
it’s so painful
but i want it to stay
thin threads of fate have tied us together
escape is not an option for me
impossible to see
my reflection in the mirror
without seeing your face too
mystical incantations draw me closer
my flaws have all been embraced
i now know that i
could never deny you
all my words are inadequate
what’s this river of tears
flowing down my face
when i think of you
leaving me behind
is this a magic spell
you cast over me
is this love
it’s so painful
but i want it to stay
but i want you to stay

Random love poem. Enjoy!

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in my mind

from our first kiss

you’ll keep me safe

in your arms

always protect me

keeping me from all harm

know you’re only human

but you’re Superman to me

breaking down my walls

leading me to ecstasy

and i’ll be waiting

when you come home

eager for that day

when i won’t be alone

in my mind

you’re close always to me

and in my heart

you’re right here next to me

can’t help but dreaming

can’t help my wishing

can’t stop my praying

until you’re in my life

i see your picture

hanging on my wall

day after day

deeper into this love i fall

always hope you’re thinking

of me

remembering the words you promised me

and that all this distance

will vanish with your call

and when that time arrives

and i’ll be your wife

and you pledge to cherish me

for the rest of your life

can’t help my wishing

can’t stop my praying

can’t help but dreaming

until you’re here to stay

Hey! I was playing around with some bits and pieces and came up with this. (And before anyone asks, NO, this is NOT from personal experience.)

Enjoy!
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luvoholic

you know
i tried my hand at love
and came away with ragged nails
torn and bloody fingertips and
open cuts crisscrossing my palms
my reward
for trying to hold
something that fought to be released
my first taste of passion
coated my tongue with bitterness
gave me the shakes and nightmares
for weeks
i swore off desire
vowed to live in chastity
and celibacy
and nunnery
and whatever else-ery

broke my promise to myself
before you could say boo

i’m in love
no i’m not
i’m in love with love
but that sounds so sick
it makes my skin crawl
and my left eye twitch
i feel queasy
it burns
it interrupts my precious sleep
it shivers me timbers
makes me float on fluffy clouds
and talk to birds

i need an intervention
come on
somebody stop me
please
i’m falling for the falling part
desiring desire
practicing my kisses
on my hand
and the crook of my elbow
i draw hearts
with bows piercing them
and initials lined up inside

see? i’m dying
from this hideous disease
it should qualify for
12 steps and its own support group
that could save somebody’s life

or mine, at least

family ties

my mama never told me
that even if i be goody
college was no guarantee
that marriage and love
was really a war
2 am phone calls
he’s leaving again

what did i do?

my daddy always said
i wasn’t good enough to
carry his name
family comes first
and ain’t it a shame
the streets love me
more than him

what did i do?

standing here
on the verge of destruction
backed into the corner
that became my life
always tried to take
my family’s advice
if they don’t love you
who will

what did i do?

my brother seems to be
a superstar
two kids baby mama no job
but he’s an angel in the eyes
of those who watch me
and i’m the devil
for saying nay

what did i do?

then my sister
claims the place
where i could finally
lay down my body
and her soul
escapes
unblemished in my place
and i am left to blame
never good enough

what did i do
to make you not love me?

she used her heartbreak as
a stepping stone
on the seldom traveled path
to enlightenment
taking shelter from the wind
in a burned out abandoned house of God
the sign in the window said
faith for sale
every night before she went to bed
she watched sneakers swinging
from the telephone wires
and all the while
she prayed for release
from the earthly shackles
that bound her here
but her prayers were all in vain
for Death refused to take her soul away
dawn after dawn she greeted the sun and asked

“won’t somebody cry for me?
won’t somebody save my soul?
won’t somebody love the me
that’s gray and old
as the nights grow cold?”

together

heartbeat to heartbeat
two lives have been joined together
thank Creator the Almighty
for placing Heaven in their hearts
and molding their souls
into two halves of a whole
i say unto you
what is love?
this joy that they share?
the frankness of feelings they carry
underneath their worldly cares?
have faith in this unity
rejoice in its strength
mind to mind
two spirits linked together
waves of passion rise
to wash over these beings
offering new life
what God has brought together
let no man put asunder
as we sit back in wonder
with hope in our hearts
let the drums overcome
let us lift our voices in celebration
as these two become one
heartbeat to heartbeat
and body and soul

lovers come
lovers go
lovers will
break your heart
lovers lie
lovers love
so sweetly
sharing kisses
caresses
secrets and dreams
salty tears
spill from the eyes
of lovers lost
abandoned love
puppy love
fated mate
other half of soul
seek no more
weeping
laughing
sharing joy
love is so lovely
love to be in love

yeah i see you

i see you watching me
brother
tryin’ to see into my soul
wonderin’ if it’s really me
the one who is supposed to grow
old at your side birth
your kids fix your meals
clean your house
make love to your mind and
work your body out
yeah i see you brother
runnin’ circles in your head
“will she” “is she” “won’t she”
follow you to the end of the world
while you protect me from harm
keep me close to your heart
and forever in your arms
yeah i see you
brother

could it be?

could it be
that you’re afraid of me
fearful of what i
might bring into your life
deeply concerned
that i may be
the only woman to see
into your heart
‘cause every time i fall
in love
the light in my soul
shines fiercely
and everything brightens
under my touch
could it be
that you view me
my love
and your need
as a surrender unto
cosmic forces
and things out of your control
instead of running away
i seem to float so free
along the stretch of road
to take your hand
i’ll take you out of
the cold
holding you in my arms
hoping you’ll see love
in my eyes
could it be
that you fear me
and the foundations
on which i stand
every time i fall in love
my happiness breaks free
all i ask is that
you stay here
eagerly at my side
looking into my eyes

Enjoy the new one!
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the lesson

being without you
tears a rip
in my heart
I never believed
I would survive
this far apart
our bodies are close
but our minds
are closed off
I can’t hear you dreaming
I can’t go on
like this

rumors of lovers
reach my ears from afar
waste no time crying
packed my bags
and I’m gone
what we used to have
take this time
to mourn
the corpse must be buried
this remnant of our love

30 days and nights
the peace
just won’t come
I feel you keening
as our souls
are still one
across the distance
from the heights
over the plains
mountains don’t crumble
but rivers will flow
pick up the pieces
but I don’t know
how many I can hold

all my fears
realized
when I see you
every time
every time
I’m yours
can’t stop the yearning
I’ve learned
to let go