Posts from — April 2009

Yes, I know.. It has been a minute since I posted a new poem. Well, here you are, my dear readers. Enjoy!
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walk this way

in this best case scenario
i’m watching the watchers
that are watching me
undecided about the level of hostility
that they should give me
i can hear their thoughts
broadcasting loud and clear
is this a sneak attack?
should we protect the rear?
when i’m just a lone woman
walking
towards the destiny
that Allah the Most High
has set in front of me
i’m a teacher i’m a mother
i’m daughter i’m a lover
my existence in this life
is as it should be, see?
if you view me as a threat
your mind is small and closed
my only weapons are intelligence
knowledge and experience
wrapped up in the faith
that’s gonna set me free

i can only testify
that the path i walk
with measured steps
is paved with uneven stones
and in places
it has crumbled
leaving gaps
that make me stumble
and throw my rhythm off
leave me wandering
and discombobulated
i knew
that it was not meant to be easy
but harsh reality
sometimes appears to tease me
dangling the shiny things
money cars and diamond rings
status wealth and power
with minions to control
trying to
exploit my weakness
trying to tempt my soul
but i face the east and pray
with my head bowed low

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This is a bit of a departure from my usual style, but i like. I hope you do, too!
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7 days left on this plane
7 days to walk and not complain
7 days i’m left to wonder why
7 days and then i die

sweet dreams allude me
cannot sleep
mind overrun with thoughts
of steel and concrete
shatterproof glass and bars
dominate
my visions of the outside world
can you relate?
out of all my friends my inner circle
been reduced to
malik ak and chico
cuz they know what i been through
long time coming
but the hour’s almost near
sweatin’ in the wintertime
can’t you smell my fear?
shouldn’t have done it
but i’m too late to apologize
tried and convicted
for the innocents i victimized
found the straight path
tryin’ every night to repent
wishin’ with my heart
i wasn’t guilty
but innocent
tellin’ mama
i wish i mended my ways
but time is runnin’ out
cuz i only got 7 days…..

7 days left on this plane
7 days to walk and not complain
7 days i’m left to wonder why
7 days and then i die

6 5 and 4
they’re knocking on my door
hearing rumors of a killing room
with drains on the floor
writin’ letters
with the nubs of pencils i stole
tryin’ to mend the breakage in my heart
and make it whole
one for my baby girl
and one for my brother
one for the sister i hurt
her father and her mother
my meager possessions been
packed and locked away
daddy holdin’ worry beads
hopin’ for stay
i hate to say it
but punishment fits the crime
i did all the dirt
now i gotta do the time
tell my mama
i wish i mended my ways
but time is running out
cuz i got 7 days

7 days left on this plane
7 days to walk and not complain
7 days i’m left to wonder why
7 days and then i die

my life changed drastically
overnight
used to kick it on the corner
standing underneath the streetlight
promises of green and gold
awoke the need
takin’ out the elderly
to feed unhealthy greed
picked the wrong car
little girl got in the way
that’s why i’m sitting in jail cell
living out my last day
they got me cuffed and shackled
to start the walk down the hall
headed to the death chamber
fear claims me after all
begging my Lord
please let me be heard
at least give me peace
while i say my final words
tell my mama i’m sorry
for never mending my ways
my time has run out
i used the last of my 7 days